Yep you see that title, its real! No more dreaming or wishing about it and then backing out last minute, now is the right time for me to finally put myself first and do something new and exciting!! So I should probs explain a little bit as to why I'm doing this and why sometimes there is NEVER a perfect time for everything. Lets begin!
Ever since I was at the tender age of 16 I've wanted to explore the world and everything in between, I've wanted to explore everything that came with travelling. And as soon as I was done with college I was hopping on a plane to start by new adventure. So there I was at 18 getting a flight on my own for the first time, sharing a room with 3 complete strangers (who are now my dearest friends), in a new country, eating new food, learning new skills. I felt like I was in my element, like this is what I was meant to do and wanted to do forever. I spent a year travelling in 3 different countries and honestly speaking (or typing,lol) Its the happeist I've ever felt, and I never wanted that feeling of magic to leave. However my little explorer bubble did burst and it was time to come back home and start living in the 'real world again', which wasn't all that bad, I love my family and friends and love coming back to them, BUT travelling the world is my real passion, and when you find something that makes you feel so alive and so happy to be alive, you should hold on to that right? When you love something so much you will literally drop everything (like your full time job) to go pursue your passion.
Okay so why there is NEVER a perfect time for anything! Sine coming back from travelling at 19 I've been wanting to go to Australia, I actually planned on going later that year right before my 20th birthday, but I somehow convinced myself the timing wasn't right. Now I'm not saying there's no such thing as perfect timing, but it is very rare to find, so sometimes we have to make our own 'perfect time'. For me it was never the perfect time because I wanted to start building on my career! WOOP WOOP being an adult it SOOOOO much fun! But being serouis I wanted to extend my experience in my craft and learn more about it and work my way up the hierarchy, mainly because having a good job is what we have all been told is what we need, I mean we literally dedicated 11 years of our lives to education just to get a good job, MENTAL! And being honest to make better money so I can actually eat food that isn't in the reduced section (which I still do because I'm cheap, but that irrelevant) So I worked my BUTT off, and put all my focus and energy into my job, and after a while of working like an absolute savage I didn't see any progression, so I thought maybe then I should just go ahead with my travel plans, but then I got promoted YAY ME! I couldn't possibly leave after just getting a new role and feeling like I was actually doing something with purpose. Naturally I stayed with my job, and continued working crazy hours, non stop, spending my days off catching up on sleep, and becoming the shell of a human, like all the life had just been sucked out of me, still doing well in my job and progressing, but extremely unhappy. Now still isn't the 'perfect time' with my job but sometimes you have to create your own perfect time, and for me I feel like now is perfect timing.
I'm now about to get incredibly real, but I feel like its something that is talked about a lot but no one ever believes it, including myself. But MONEY and having a CAREER won't make you happy in the long run, thats just a straight fact! Now of course its great to have and does make life easier but I've never been more miserable in myself than I'am right now, with my bank account looking better than ever (humble brag) and my career really taking off (another humble brag). The magic isn't there, the lust for life has vanished, and I know things come to an end, what goes up must come down, but what if you just float and live among the magic instead of just borrowing it. I strongly remember watching an interview of Kylie Jenner saying that the thrill of having everything you could ever want lasts about 10 seconds then your over it. With me thinking 'yeah right she's never lived without money her entire life, she has no idea what she's talking about', but I hate to admit it, she was kinda right. If you have found something that makes you truly happy, no matter how strange or unstable it may be, you should do it! Do something that creates amazing memories, whats the point in having great success and money without people to share it with? Forget the money, forget working so hard you can't even enjoy your life, and just run and jump into something that makes you unapologetically happy.
Well now your up to speed with everything, and I hope it gave you a good idea of where my heads been recently, and maybe you could relate to parts of it? I'd love to hear your thoughts and if you've ever done something like this! Drop a comment below or tweet me @IzzyDirscoll :) I will be doing another blog post about travelling to Australia and getting myself ready for that, so be on the lookout for that one!! Thank you for taking the time to read my post, and obviously remember to always keep exploring!